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POLYESTER ZINE
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January 2023
Book Binging: Does Reading Too Much Ruin the Meaning?
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The Matrix of Micro-aesthetics: How Trends Ruled 2022
December 2022
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Political Pieces
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1883 Magazine
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Forget the Future: It's the Now That's Female for Meg Donnelly as she talks fashion experimentation, political activism & taking no breaks.
October 2022
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September 2022
Offering Authenticity to Netflix's ‘13: the Musical’, NY’s Eli Golden sets his eyes on Broadway & bringing home the bacon.
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Non-Fiction Essays
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Carry On Proxy
With thanks to Christian
November 2022
That stretched anus gasp of Kenneth Williams: ‘Oh I say’, and we say it too. Humour was a strange terrain when you Carried On. The Doctor, The Matron, and the cleavage in-between, they were sleazy, they were sexy, but they were somehow still for children.
We sit square bummed and wind peeled on a bench, my limbs folded on top of one another, a stale trifle with erected arm hairs. Christian’s hands are pocketed, back to the birch — more mellow than myself, curing breaths with an ease. Why the invention of a wooden seat? My bones felt chinked by its rusk, as if I sat on the knee of an open top coffin. I wriggled most minutes against coccyx squeals, a short-term relief.
‘You ever met anyone famous?’, I found my mouth forge against the breeze.
Taking dominance in a cold thrush, I had to repeat myself to be heard, but once I had, he slouched back, wilted knees in heavy mull. Racking the brain. He listed a few I’d not heard of, though bulging wide eyes in spectre all the same. But amongst the list of celebrity liaisons, one name clocked me hands tight and chiming for the hour- now this was miraculous discovery.
‘Stop it. You’ve actually met her met her? Does she laugh like that in person?’
As it transpires, the natural laugh of Barbara Windsor is in fact as authentically filthy a birdsong as it shrills against the grain of the crusted VHS. Strange, we thought, to be raised on those films. Smack handed fondles in the camera’s left corner, middle aged peepers with sagged skin and morals, and so much talk of lovely pears when apples were clearly superior? Perhaps we were plaqued square eyed below the box in avoidance of ‘the talk’. The birds and the ‘Oh Behave!’s’ beneath canned laughter and a jaunty trumpet— perhaps that was to be the all of our domestic sex education. Of most a hot collared joke, Barbara was the brunt, and I wonder if she minded. FLING-ing and IN the breasts of an overage teenager, she made light work of assembling paedophilia. Her body was what found currency in the age of innuendo, but it was the flourish of her pen- rushed and fleeting for the backstage, that instead, found theft in veering eyes during the striped tie strangle of Christian’s early school days.
Christmas for the nose is a peppery pine. In the assembly hall, it’s a pine PVA tacked— chemically backwashed and bauble accompanied; homemade with snot and glitter for the backside of the tree. Unshackled for an evening from jumper born eczema and fingers on lips, Christian’s mother took him to a pantomime. A rare slice of bonding, and comfortably public.
‘It was the first one I’d been to’. He exhaled to me in smoggy lung, and from the
attention of his words, I sensed it might’ve also been his last.
A pantomime of vulgarity entirely its own, Barbara’s Carry On stints may not have felt too far from her bustiered bustle in the aptly allocated ‘Dick Wittington’. During the wisps of the Naughties, he may be behind you, but at least it wasn’t with a groping hand. Christian recalled the density of the event; mangled orderly and rattling like a fresh tablet packet, the Bristol Hippodrome played house for the evening.
The performance itself made little impact, and fating his future in the curation of fashion, Christian’s eyes, all young and December drunk, fathomed nothing of the plot and leaned only into the spectre of Miss Windsor’s dress: tea cupping, obnoxious, the peak of christmas camp. The importance of the night came only after.
Hurried and skin clotted into back corridor chaos, there she was. Shedded of chiffon and much slimmer, she graced my friend’s small palm with her own and ushered him a note. Autographs don’t seem to have much currency today— the photo’s the thing, unpoised and exposing, the curl of a hand screams rehearsal, the unpersonal, the artistry of an alphabet wafted sexy on paper wind. To Christian however, this was Wow Board, winning material. Seized eager in hand and tingling to be told, The Barbara Encounter was looked at but not touched by the other children. Recounted with zeal against the radiator steep of his winter struck classroom, Christian’s gift to the show & tell made unexpected impact upon the gossip of playground pick up. Anointing the wall for a waif of a moment, his re-entrance to the cloakroom a few frost washed days thereafter was met with hot shock. Stolen. A phantom on the wall in an oblong vacuum, its remembrance now framed by crap flaps of crayon — skin the tinge of carrot and crumbled against rubber scuff. It was the only thing worthy of its place yet gone so it was… and Christian knew who did it. Well, he thought he did. The prefect rivalry of the previous term billowed through the air like a stale steam; one of the red’s surely, or the blues, they always had it in for the greens. Though through self-restraint and the pulping burden of SAT’s, Christian’s efforts never crowned the Conon Doyle- the thief was unknown, but odd, being a child — should it have been the biro flare of say Dick or Dom, Christian might’ve thought it more likely. In the powers of deduction, the verdict became proxy. Pinched with the sticky fingers of primary school gloop and passed over to Mum after the skirmish of the gate. Whoever’s child it was I imagine they got hair pat and pizza tea for the privilege of the crime. And whoever’s mother conjured it, that planned puppeteering for a lifetime brag, I hope she’s sitting pretty, having resisted the robbery of pick-n-mix sugar clumps in the long-aged youth of her own. She gives new meaning to living vicariously. Training the Post-Brexit bandit and ogling her prize, Barbara by now is likely sun-bleached and neglected.
And that, in memory, was the brunt of it. I’ve had little encounters with fame myself, and where the drama of playground politics stank of oatcakes and unpunishment for Christian’s remaining school years, my favourite amusement of this tale came from a google thereafter, only a second ago. Lost to the abyss of a fridge magnet minefield, Christian of course, could never fully recall the autograph. But with swift search bar clack and google image boasters, I came across a brilliance. Her signage was typical, swelled and superlative, a coiling of letters mangled dramatic in speed. But that final ‘R’, (backward and caricatured as that letter often was in the shorthand of old days) was unusually bulbus. Fondling the ‘O’ that came before it, the shape of her name I hope was a decision well considered: taunting the typecast and handing it to children, the tits that graced the final ink of WINDSOR were certainty a lovely pair indeed.
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Review: 'Writers & Lovers' by Lily King
October 2022
Grief may make a shadow of life- warped and strangely coloured against a red thread tablecloth, but should that mean the image isn’t fascinating all the same? Lily King writes richness into the bleak and bleary as her new novel Writers & Lovers, swallows millennial nihilism, writers block and unattended grief whilst still having room for dessert. Untempted by literary prowess, King’s novel, its dull edged sentences and unenthusiastic metaphors were what: as someone who danes to call themselves a writer, festered in me most. In giving no punctuation to life’s most visceral emotions, Writers & Lovers makes …. In illuminating the reality that sometimes there isn’t always beauty in the world in need of capturing
When telling her wage-to-mouth dead-end co-workers of her status as an unpublished writer, Casey maintains a wavering frame against the thick winds of her mother’s jarring death and the jagged lined puzzle of piecing together her prose. ‘How’s the novel? Each one asks in snide caricature, glumping beads of side sauces into ramakins for the 5-top in their section. ‘I don’t date writers, other writers’, jerks another; misaligned and untethered from the myth of modern-day writing whimsicality. Spurned both in life and romance into the pipe-dream ease of a ‘writers’ life’, Casey brings a brutish realism both refreshing and necessary to the craft of creating story. Unfamiliar to writing both romance and romanticism, Lily King nuances her sweetness for intimacy in this fifth novel- forging in newness, a foxglove zing of complex life. Casey may be a writer, but she’s tired. Awash with trauma, her cynicism shadows that happy-go-lucky stringing beauty on the page, glint of life that finds itself lumped like cancer to the writer’s backside.
Where writing in actuality, takes energy to do properly, the diatribe Casey gives to her everyday moulds in lacklustre and documentary- there is no flourish to her journaling’s and the mundane feels very much, like the mundane. Not all writing is velvet in the mouth. In fact, most is dismal, necessary and unfun. Writers & Lovers achieves both, but rightfully doesn’t strike solely for the first. This I feel is the truth of writing, and what makes King’s new novel both glorious and internal. I write this review without the knowledge of aggressive grief. Where I have lost people in life, I have not lost like Casey, or those who have been dealt the same. Yet, even with such specific and ungeneralising grief, it is through her reflections on maternal dynamics and the complexities that grief strikes in between one’s perceptions of the world that I felt aligned to.
In the growth of her narrative, the growing success of her novel and the expansion of her romantic life, vibrancy is found blossoming but not thrusted into Casey’s narration. The reader is not taught by her, nor pitying over her. Where descriptions are richer and individuals become fascinating and unknowable, still looming is the crass ceiling of short sentences and shallow breaths. King’s readers and their narrator navigate the irregularities of life without oars or expectation. Happiness and unenthusiasm are not mutually exclusive, and in making them such, Casey frees the writer from their historically engrained ‘task’ so to speak. To demonstrate, to improve, to teach the reader of their defect that- ‘the world is beautiful, and you can’t even see it’. The hierarchy of instruction is challenged by King and the learnings of life are made multidirectional.
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Manic Pixie to Moshfegh Maniac: Today’s ‘Unhinged’ Literary Heroines Aren’t So Different.
August 2022
The millennial indie flick has, in its shadowing years, offered much for discussion in the realm of correctly crafting feminist characters. Amongst an innovative soundtrack and stylistically mundane narrative, swans in a picture of whimsical rebellion anointed with dyed hair and a carefree, jouissant attitude to the everyday. Where she finds herself untethered from traditionally restrictive modes of gender, the Manic Pixie Dream Girl (MPDG) in her aestheticized unconventionalism typically finds her shortfall in her attachment to the male protagonist. An archetype we’re all familiar with ascribed to films of the Mainstream Indie Ilk: Scott Pilgrim vs The World, 500 Days of Summer etc, the MPDG may transcend the bounds of simple objectification with the oh so ground-breaking concept that women possess personalities as well as a poetic pair of eyes, yet persists in finding herself tethered to the two-dimensional: a pseudo-sexual spirit guide for the nihilistically capitalist. I speak with a face of cringe when I announce my decision at 15, to attempt the haircut of Ramona Flowers on a school night with stationary scissors, and as much as I still love her outfits and forthright attitude six years on, I’ve learnt to scrutinise her purpose. As the film industry thankfully expanded its inclusion of women both in front and behind the screen over recent years, the politics and influences of this trope have gladly faded into ridicule. Female complexity, actions and consequences find themselves spotlighted and discussed, as minds such as Chloe Zhao and Greta Gerwig take the reins. I could praise the growth and criticise the still needed progress of cinematic feminism all day, but where my attentions lie, in my summer hibernation of minimal money and heat too thick to move, is the ever-growing obsession with the ‘Unhinged Woman’.
BookTok truly is, a delicious disease. A screen-time seemingly doubled and a TBR invading each crevice of my room. Those familiar, will know BookTok to be a sector of the severely addictive TikTok, fixated on the discussion and recommendation of books. And where the social media app has proved to be fundamental in distributing fashion trends and ascending music to the top of the charts, its reputation ceases to fail in its popularisation of certain genres of fiction. The most prominent I’ve found in recent months, is its celebration and compilation of ‘Unhinged’ feminist literature, where authors such as the infamous Ottessa Moshfegh, Chelsea G. Summers, Melissa Broader, amongst others, find themselves and their novels at the modern Genesis of the concept. I italicize feminist here as I hope to later consider the extent to which reader alignment and pursuit of these damaged, reckless individuals actually propels a regurgitated distortion of female value that find its roots in the MPGD.
As narratives that typically assert minimal plot, this genre find itself articulating both the subtle and non-so-subtle insurgences of women against the patriarchal and the capitalist. Rife with tropes of self-aware attractiveness, vacuous sexual encounters, an unfeeling existentialism and in certain cases, crime, the unhinged female asserts a modernity in her unresponsiveness towards catering masculine perception. Indeed, quite the opposite from her candyfloss haired predecessor, male characters offer very little and serve use minimally in the roles of sexual partners or victims. Selfishly existing, the woman unhinged offers no help to the world and expects nothing back in return- an outwardly delightful subversion.
You may ask then what I find issue with in these novels? Female rage and the occasional male violence are certainly no problem with me. Ironically these books coat my shelves- and where I don’t profess to have perused the full depths of the genre, those I have been called to read have
certainty been fascinating. For the majority of their construction, the typically unlikeable protagonist isn’t intended to be aligned with; entitled, self-obsessed and fickle, these literary women embody the nihilism of the cinematic men that once sought to romanticise them. The problem I feel however, is less so in these books themselves, but their misunderstood interpretation and the acceleration of such through the swipes of a certain social media app. Now I’m not one to tell people what to interpret a book- I spent the first two years of University attempting this before I realised how horrendously pretentious, I sounded. But where BookTok reaches a wide spectrum of readers, the miscommunicated meaning of these characters when distributed to younger readers may enact issues in terms of their exploration of women.
I find issue with the extremities of female behaviour used as an instrument of discovering an edgy and heightened personality. Profusely asserted as evidently unlikeable by their authors, the girlhood goddess-complex remains fastened to the TikToks of romanticised reading lists that witness a new age of the whimsical cool girls attempting to find excellence in the mentally ill. where the familiar whimsicality of the Manic Pixie embedded depression into its dreams, the vulnerabilities of mental illness fell quashed behind eccentric visuals and the masculinised delusion of the ‘complex’ female personality. Not so dissimilar to the Lolita’s and Clementine’s with the online insurgence of Coquette-core coming to fruition, contemporary ‘Unhinged’ fiction emerges to be a genre occasionally written but repetitively interpreted through the conjecture that mental anguish instinctually crafts superiority, desirability and a glorified individualism. Where the representation of mental illness in women of course calls to be represented in literature, what lacks emphasis, is the fact that the harsh truths and brutality of such issues must preside over the floral language and aestheticism that appear to carve the ‘chaotic cool girl’. In recent weeks, semi-unrelated TikTok has seen the self-removal of Fiona Apple’s entire discography from the app, rumoured to be in resilience against certain users transformation of female pain and mental illness into misunderstood glamourisation. Impressionable readers may rightfully so, read in existentialism of societies surrounding flaws, but unlike me, their fixational takeaway may not be so trivial and temporary as a bad haircut. Whether unhinged fiction alone acts as the problem, or more expansively, the ongoing machinery of micro-trends, this dainty, damaged sense of girlhood looks to have begun its 20 year recycle.
Where further misalignment lies in these heroines, is interestingly, in their privilege. It may be that my reading circle of such books has been too minimal, looking only at those ‘unhinged’ narratives that find themselves Tik Tok trendsetters, however we must ask why the prominence of those that find themselves as such persist for the majority, In white centred perspectives, with the addition of societally affirmed beauty and financial comfort. Within a socio-political climate that continues to churn on the debate of women’s rights, I understand the ubiquitous worship for the collective of subversive, rebellious women; at times I find their actions immaculate and their philosophies poignant. Yet, after consuming what almost feels like the same novel 10 times over about the same conventionally attractive women declaring her polished middle finger to the system whilst jawing on hamburger roadkill, I’m uninterested. The crucial aspect of My Year of Rest and Relaxation which I think finds itself missing in many youthful glorifications of the book, is its self- criticism, Moshfegh herself being Persian, her novel’s heroine: unnamed, unlikeable and unaware of her privilege, is crafted with the intention of reining criticism and yet where some content creators and reviewers come to realise this nuance, for the majority of its ascension to fame, the novel’s
dissection of western entitlement and caricaturistically rich cynicism, falls short to an almost religious idolatry towards being fucked up and not giving a fuck.
Perhaps we need more novels about non-white women, in non-western diasporas, offering a similar systematic rage for the weight of these narratives to delve deeper than the surface. If a large amount of these already exist, I ask why it seems to be predominantly white narratives that find themselves at the height of the modern literary canon? Or maybe the term ‘Unhinged’ should find itself abandoned completely; why do such narratives seek to push ‘unhinged’ actions as the central force for systematic resistance? Once again, the woman, despite a more gracious expense of exploration, remains at the mercy of her own mentality. Where she finds empowerment in detaching herself from men, her worth appears bound indefinitely to the ‘ornament’ that is her inner pain.
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October 2022
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